I had a bit of a rough start this morning. Truth be told, my body and mind felt just a bit ‘out of sync.’
It happens on even my ‘most mindful’ of days. And, the medication I take certainly doesn’t help matters, a bit – as it seems to cause it’s own smidgen of fumbly-ness.
Nevertheless, I am grateful for my imperfections – because, they always remind me of when I need to slow my pace.
To breathe, and accept with grace, each of these often humbling experiences.
Today, was no exception. I was struggling desperately to keep up with the flow of my first meeting – when, my fingers locked mid-tremor over the computer keys.
“Wow, you sure picked the wrong day to stop sniffing glue,” someone called from the back; a harmless jab at my inability to move smoothly through the meeting details.
As everyone laughed, I felt that familiar warmth to my face. The next struggle was to keep all those pesky tears in place.
And though, I know the comment was certainly made in jest – still, I found myself a bit caught off guard by my own vulnerability.
It’s these moments of truth, so to speak – the ones which shine their light brightest – revealing all of those dreadful little blemishes on our soul.
It’s here that we learn the most about ourselves; when we’re asked to respond, without first determining our ‘story.’
People tend to see me in the warmth of their own light. At times, forgetting about the human soul inside.
The one who, at times, sits so completely exposed.
I’ve always believed tears to be the heart’s way of expressing that which can not be put into words. And, in this life, my darlings…
Sometimes we fumble…
Sometimes we falter…and,
Sometimes we cry.
But, rest assured…there is always something magnificent to be learned.
“You just go a little crazy, you know. Sometimes. And why? Well only because your soul is just too big for you.” ― C. JoyBell C.
My darlings, it’s these moments of stretching beyond our truest limits – that allow our soul to finally break free.
And, for this – just this – I am forever grateful.
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