A Little Something About Being “Normal”.

I’ve been feeling rather down, as of late; the result of communications gone awry and life changes at a far too hurried pace.

Worse yet, I allowed awkwardness and inabilities to become another’s reality.

In my attempts to offer clarity, I only made things worse. And though, I would never intentionally hurt a friend – well, here we were.

One of the challenges I’ve faced with respect to my condition, is learning to accept life at a diminished pace. My neural pathways are constantly out of sync, causing the whole of the universe to operate on a 10 second delay.

Imagine the difficulties in daily conversation? That which is generally taken for granted can suddenly become a stumbling point.

It’s a part of me that can’t always be seen, that struggle to fit…to pass, undetected.

I’ve learned to accommodate through other means – a thoughtful pause here and there, asking that question over and over (and over) again. And when all else fails, I simply lean in. I look to the non-verbals – the smile, the eyes – that which is reflected back again.

But, in writing – well, that’s a horse of a different color. Sometimes, all those words will have suddenly lost their place. Like subtitles in a foreign film ~ I follow the scene, in lieu of what’s written.

It can be difficult to feel ‘normal’ against another’s standards.

Though, I do know this…

That which sometimes yields sorrow, can likewise be our greatest blessing.

Yes, I may seem out of sync, though – my goodness, what the eyes will see when the mind slows down.

My faulted depth perception forces me to lean closer, to run my fingers against roughened bark and take notice of the season’s passing.

And, those littler things which are often missed – the vibrant hues at end of day, the softened snooze of a dog settling in?

They become life’s most cherished events; blessings of heart shared graciously here.

We all have our stumbling points, my darlings. We are broken and bruised, and yet — our light never dulls.

Why?

Because, that light from within is comprised of only love.

Sometimes, though, as painful as it may seem, we need these life lessons to remind us that we are human.

And, oh my darlings ~ I’m so grateful I’m not ‘normal’ anymore! Take your bitters of ‘normal’ with a pinch of salt.

I wouldn’t trade a moment of normal for any of these blessings shared.

Namaste, my dearest loves…on this day, I wish you peaceful blessings and an unconditional love ~ ❤️

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Tara Lemieux is a mindful wanderer, and faithful stargazer. Although she often appears to be listening with great care, rest assured she is most certainly‘forever lost in thought. She is an ardent explorer and lover of finding things previously undiscovered or at the very least mostly not-uncovered.

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  • When we abandon the concepts of normalcy and standards of the expected life, we open ourselves to the achingly beautiful wonder and amazement of grace. <3 Blessings for all you do, dearest Tara, and keep heart.

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